My reading this morning was from Psalm 69.
Save me, O God, for the waters have come up to my neck.
I sink in the miry depths, where there is no foothold.
I have come into the deep waters; the floods engulf me.Psalm 69:1-3
I am worn out calling for help; my throat is parched.
My study Bible says that if David is the author of this Psalm, the occasion is unknown. New Testament authors viewed this cry of a godly sufferer as foreshadowing of the sufferings of Christ.
I’m not a scholar, so I can’t tell you what this means.
What I know is how I feel when I read those 3 verses.
- I feel the Psalmist David understood how our emotions can range from the highest mountaintops to the deepest valleys.
- Since the words could also be about Christ, I feel that Jesus, too, understands what it is like to have conflicting emotions.
The emotional struggle is real. For a person with bipolar disorder, the ups can be very high and the downs can be very low, much like the Psalmist. Fortunately for me, the pendulum swing is not that extreme. I struggle mostly with depression interspersed with a few moments here and there of manic thoughts and actions.
In the past fifteen months, I’ve often shared how God brought me out of the pit of depression and brought me into the light. A couple of weeks ago, I likened my journey to that of a caterpillar in a cocoon that transforms into a butterfly.
I still feel that to be true, but unlike a butterfly, I wanted to retreat into my cocoon and ride out the mild depression I felt the past few days.
The depression might have been brought on by grief, as I lost an uncle last week. We were not close, but he was a part of my mom’s family. I pictured him as he walked through heaven’s gates, with my grandma, his mom, there to greet him with open arms. Even so, the loss of yet another family member hovered in my mind as the weekend progressed.
Throughout the weekend, I studied what the Bible has to say about creation: how God created light by the Word of His mouth.
Jesus was with God in the beginning. The same God, yet a separate identity.
In the beginning was the Word (Jesus) and the Word was with God and the Word was God.
In Him (Jesus) was life, and that life was the light of man. The light shines in the darkness…John 1:1-2; 4, 5a
Jesus confirmed this when he called Himself the Light of the World in John 8:12.
Jesus said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness but will have the light of life.”John 8:12
Sometimes Christians can experience emotionally dark times, but God is present with us even then. Just because we can’t see the sun on a cloudy day, its presence is still there. So God has promised to never leave us or forsake us.
God also promises one day there will be no more darkness. When we reach our heavenly home and are in the presence of God, Revelation 22:5 says,
There will be no more night. They will not need the light of the sun, for the Lord God will give them light.Revelation 22:5
I am so thankful that God is the Giver of Light. He is also the God of forgiveness. And the Great Healer. May anyone who is going through a time of darkness lift their eyes toward heaven and cry out as the Psalmist did. And if you need a counselor, or a doctor-prescribed medication, to get you through the lows, don’t be afraid to reach out to a trusted source for help.
God hears our every prayer, even the words we cannot speak. He will be with us and give us light. And someday, there will be no more darkness, and no more night.
Praise the Lord.